Hello world!Hi,I'm Ashok.Welcome to my blog.Am an student of engineering,but yet I feel I am so much more than that.My life is riddled with much insecurity and self-hatred.Sometimes I feel like confiding about my problems to somebody.But there are some things that I shouldn't probably be telling others,especially stuff about my problems!I'm sure no one wants to hear about them anyway!I've decided not to let all my emotions bottled up anymore.I love the power of the written word and also this process of blog writing is so much like writing a personal diary that i thought of giving it a try.

I don't know whether it's a psychological problem,but sometimes I just feel like I am too smug and secure in my existence and I would love to be out in the world exploring the myriad experiences of life.I hate myself for being so smug sometimes,that one of these days I should get into a fight and break a few bones,that way I will feel a lot more alive than I have ever felt.Maybe that will get me out of this state of this state of eternal smugness I am in!

I just had a setback a few months back and I hoped to get out of that state of constant mental unsureness,that occured due to that setback.

I know that I